Not a lot better, but I had a good night’s sleep last night, which has helped. And though my mood is a bit down, I know that it is just a dip – there will be ups and downs but I believe that the downs won’t last forever.
Over the past couple of days I have been involved in a debate about breast feeding, and whether some women really don’t have enough milk. This is a subject that has been a very sensitive one for me, as I felt for years that I had ‘failed’ to breast feed the boys – I even had one of them in hospital, diagnosed as Failure To Thrive’ as a 6 week old, exclusively breast fed baby. I beat myself up for years.
But this debate has felt different to me. I am not seeing things said there as an implication that I am a failure for not breast feeding. It feels as if I have finally moved on from this – and that is a positive thing.