I have decided to have some Cognitive Behavioural Therapy – luckily I can get it through N’s health insurance. It is several months since I finished group therapy, and I was advised not to go straight from one therapy to another, so the New Year seems like a good time to do this positive thing for myself. I am very aware that the root of all my problems is in my head – the way that my experiences as a teenager and since have coloured my perception of myself and my beliefs about myself and my place in the world – and I hope that CBT will help me to adjust the way I think now.
I think that the Positive Things of this blog fit in with CBT, and maybe the two will work together to help me change my thoughts and feelings and become more positive about myself. Other people seem to like me, and value my friendship and company, and I need to learn to do that too.
Yesterday’s Positive Thing was cooking supper all on my own – I hurt my knee at the beginning of December, and haven’t been able to walk or stand well ever since – but that is finally improving, and yesterday I was motivated and able to make toad-in-the-hole, with mash and cabbage – and it was delicious and went down well with the whole family. Tonight is supposed to be fish pie, but I am torn between that, and a smoked fish and seafood pasta, or a smoked fish and seafood risotto/rice dish. Decisions, decisions.