Apparently I do not have type 2 diabetes! I am pre-diabetic, but last week’s blood test was under the diagnostic threshold for diabetes – it had fallen from 7.9mmols to 6.3mmols. Obviously I do need to lose weight, otherwise it is only a matter of time before I do develop diabetes, but it is still good news.
The doctor is happy with the changes that I have made to my diet, and with the fact that I am going to join the gym, and I feel reasonably positive. Actually, no – that’s a lie. I am struggling to make myself believe that I can lose weight. Intellectually I know it is possible – and that given the laws of nature and biology, if I cut down my calorie intake and increase my exercise levels, I will lose weight – but I have failed at this whole diet thing for so long that I find it hard to believe in my heart that I won’t fail again this time. And it is going to be a very long road, and I am worried that I will find it hard to keep my motivation up.
I think weighing myself regularly, and maybe keeping a food and activity diary, will be the way to go. At the moment, I weigh 137kg (on the surgery scales). I won’t get on those again until I see the GP in November for another fasting blood test (to check how things are going), and at the moment I think I am too heavy for our scales at home. Hopefully the gym will have a set of scales, and I will be able to keep track using those.
If I can start to see an improvement – my weight coming down, and my fitness and flexibility getting better, then that should spur me on to achieve more.