I make bad decisions when I am depressed or having a bad day. Bad decisions about food (comfort eating, stuffing myself full of sweet stuff and fatty stuff that I know is bad for me – and makes me fatter leading to a vicious downward spiral of self-loathing), spending money I don’t have or can’t afford – like just now, on in-game purchases on the PC or the iPad. Sometimes I can stop myself, but other times I either can’t – or I just don’t.
Doing this doesn’t make me feel better – intellectually I know this, but I still do it.
Perhaps I need to step away from the PC – or at least, step away from the games – and do something more constructive or creative. It’s not like I don’t have plenty of tidying and cleaning that needs doing, and plenty of creative projects just waiting for me to either finish them off or get going on them.
Maybe I should sit down and do some doodling – the zentangle book has arrived, so I could work through some of the exercises and start learning more about that.
I’ve even downloaded apps onto the iPad to learn basic Japanese and Russian, and to brush up on my German vocab.
I need a good shake.
I got my behind in gear and did some zentangle doodling, and here is the result!