We laughed a lot at knitting group this morning – it is one of the joys of that group, that we share so much laughter!
I am very tired, though – and I can’t think of anything else to say. Except that I had a very emotional discussion with N last night. I know I am being unfair to him – there is so much that he does, that I should be doing, and he does it all to support me and help me. Maybe I am a lazy cow who is taking advantage of him – I don’t know. All I know is that I struggle to find the motivation to do the simple things – and when I run out of ‘get up and go’, that’s it, I can do no more. Which is unfair on him and the boys.
Maybe they would be better off without me. Or maybe things will gradually improve – I am off the antidepressants, and I am doing more exercise – maybe I will recover more, and be able to do more. I just hope they can stick it out until then.
So it would appear that, despite the friendliness and laughter of knitting group, I am actually having a bad day. Bugger.