I can feel myself slipping into a depressive slump. My thoughts are pretty negative at the moment, physically I am more of a wreck than normal, I am very tired all the time (more so than usual), and I am mainlining chocolate whenever I can get my hands on it.
But I have found a free online resource called MoodGym, that is a cognitive behavioural therapy course, and I made a start on it today. I am not expecting instant results, but I am going to hold onto the first lesson, which was about negative thoughts influencing how I feel. Though now I am feeling a bit discouraged because I thought I had taken in what it was teaching me today, but I can’t dredge it out of my poor brain at the moment. That is not because I am a stupid person, though – it is because I am tired and my brain is foggy – and that is not my fault – so maybe I have absorbed the lesson, even if I can’t articulate it. Confused yet? You will be!
So lesson 1 is that I am not a bad person, or stupid or a failure. And I am trying to believe that.