Clearly I am not managing one positive thing every day – to be honest, I am struggling a lot at the moment. But there are some positives.
Firstly, despite feeling pretty crappy and low, I have not gone back onto the antidepressants, and I am surviving without them. I am not doing as well as I was over the summer, but I am still surviving, and that is positive.
Secondly, I am managing to motivate myself a bit. Yesterday, and one day last week, I did make myself go to the gym, despite really, really not wanting to! I am not doing as much cardio as I was – but I think 3×10 minute sessions on the treadmill was too much for my knees – so I am doing 10 minutes on the treadmill, and then 50 minutes of resistance work (concentrating on things that don’t stress my knee joints). I don’t know how much good I am doing – but given how little I normally do, any exercise has got to be an improvement, right?
Thirdly, I am being a bit more organised with regard to cooking the evening meal. If it is something that can be cooked in advance, and heated up in the evening, I am trying to get that done in the morning, so that I can relax in the afternoon, and there is not too much left to do to get the meal on the table. Today, I have made a beef casserole, that is going to simmer gently in the oven all day, hopefully getting more and more tasty. All I will need to do is put some potatoes in to bake later on, and then make some dumplings to go in. And I might make myself make the dumplings – or at least weigh out the mixture – before I go and sit down for the afternoon with my knitting, my ipad and the tv!
Finally, N and I had a big blitz at the weekend – we sorted out all the kitchen cupboards, got rid of lots of out-of-date food, and everywhere is now clean, and tidy, and beautifully organised. And I have kept on top of keeping the kitchen clean since, too. Though that is despite the best efforts of the rest of the family, who have yet to grasp the (admittedly very complex) concept of wiping things up if you spill them!!