This year has not got off to the best of starts for me. I had a cold over Christmas, and the effects of the virus seem to be hanging around forever – I have little or no energy or enthusiasm for anything – I am falling asleep in the afternoons – and I haven’t been to choir rehearsals once yet this year.
I don’t know if I am just taking longer than normal to get over a virus, or if the virus has pushed me into depression again – and I can’t be bothered to go to the doctor and discuss it with them – I am just staggering through each day, doing the bare minimum, and hoping to feel better at some point.
I almost burst into tears at knitting group this week, talking about how I was feeling – and friends from there are encouraging me to go to the doctor, and to take antidepressants if I need them – but I just can’t get my head around actually doing it.
Basically, I just want to crawl under the duvet and fall asleep – and never wake up.