How do I feel? 7/10 – normal physical stuff, but less tired because I let myself hit the snooze button a number of times this morning, so had a much-needed snooze.
I do feel pretty positive today – yesterday’s therapy was really good – I was able to talk about the fear I feel about what will replace depression, as my recovery continues – the black dog has been such a massive part of my life for so long, that its absence – well, it will still be there, but massively diminished, and with its influence removed – that I know I will need a new focus.
We talked about the possibility of me training to be a counsellor or therapist – it plays to my strengths. This came out of an exercise I did last week, where the first question asked basically who I want to be – my answer is below, in a poster that I have created for myself, so I can see these words every day, and hopefully they will work their way into my subconscious, and exert their influence from there.
It would seem I can’t insert a copy of the poster I have made – I am sure it is possible to post a pdf in here, but my poor brain can’t work it out – so here is the text I have used, and below is the picture I have superimposed it on.
Who I want to be.
Kind, thoughtful, intelligent, funny, well-read and well informed.
Willing to help others.
Having inner peace, balance, serenity.
Able to cope with highs and lows, not taking problems or set-backs personally.
Healthy, reasonably active, involved with things I enjoy.